So, 5 1/2 months on HRT and loving every minute of it! My breasts are coming in nicely. I'm nearly a b cup! My hips are filling in as well and my face has changed too. I was looking at pictures of me from before starting all of this and man, what a difference! The thing I'm most happy about though, is that I'm happy and emotionally stable. I was worried I'd get into this and feel like I made a huge mistake. I'm out full time, even at work. Thank God I work for an awesome company that is supportive and understanding. And I love, love, LOVE wearing women's clothing all the time. About 95% of my coworkers are women. Black women at that and the only reason I point that out is because here in the Dirty South, black women are known for wearing fabulous shoes. That being said, I've been labled by some as the girl with the fierce shoes!! I love my collection of heels. I can't wait for winter so I can wear stockings and tights and boots. Mmmmmm... boots.
I'm dating! I even have a girlfriend and she is awesome. Even though she's known me for years as my male self, we really didn't hang out that much. A couple of months ago, we bumped into each other at a leather convention, had some really hot play and exchanged numbers. It's been pretty hot and heavy ever since. Things between us look promising. She is a lifestyle domme, kinky and very sadistic and super sexy and smart and funny and communicative and patient, and passionate, intuitive, and empathic, and wickedly creative. Plus she has a shoe collection that is to die for!!! (and we wear the same size shoe!!!!) She treats me with kindness and respect and makes me feel sexy, beautiful and feminine.
Sex since transition has been interesting, to say the least! It is good, very good in fact, but very different. I would almost say that my libido is non existent, but that really isn't the case. It's just different than what I've been used to for the last 28 years since hitting puberty as a boy. As a boy, the need for sex was ever present. Always just under the surface, bubbling and boiling and building and looking for that release valve. Always needing that release. Never quite satisfied or satieated. Now though, that constant feeling of need to release is not there. While I do think about sex now, it's not as often nor is it as generalized. It's more focused and directed. I don't masturbate nearly as much now either. But let me tell you. When I get around my girlfriend and she flips that switch, it's on! Sex is fierce and passionate and hotter than it ever was as a boy. I can orgasm in ways I never could before and many times. It's like my whole body is an erogenous zone now and sex and pleasure are not centered around my genitals. It's mental and emotional, like a fire that slowly builds and consumes me from the inside-out.
Also, I have come to realize that I'm jstill as big of a masochist as I ever was. I just process the pain differently now. And I cry, which is amazing. I still have all the same kinks and fetishes I had before and it has been fun figuring out how to participate in and incorporate those activities into my sex life as a trans girl. It helps that I have a partner who understands and is just as adventurous and creative and open minded as I am.
All of that being said, I could use some dick! :)
